Anonymous asked:

I'm so hurt for you that you have to have a c-section. I don't want to say it off anon because I don't want to seem judgy and I really care about you, and it seems like you're accepting it. It just breaks my heart that you have to go through it and fight for any future births.

trust me… I am fighting like hell to get the best outcome from this birth… Who said I was having a cesarean? I’m not trying to have one nor am I trying to imagine getting one… I am still in the mindframe that this external version will work and that I will be able to have a natural delivery. (Vaginal induced). And even though all of the doctors at my office have not been very reassuring about the version working… I am making them do it anyway LOL.

But I am trying to stay as positive as I can and not automatically think that I’m getting a section. :) I totally understand that if it happens it happens and I can’t really do anything about it… So it’s not so much disappointment as it is acceptance now because at this point there’s nothing I can do about it… So I don’t know how I will react if I end up needing a C-section… But I’m not even going to think about it and I will cross that bridge if it comes. :)

Anonymous asked:

I completely understand why you would be upset if people go oh the 25th is ---, like no that's great but that's the day your baby is being born! let you be happy about it! don't cloud it with other stuff because that other stuff isn't going. to matter to you lol

Thank youuuu! Someone gets it haha.

I posted it on Instagram first and I got a bunch of comments that were completely irrelevant to me… Like oh it’s my blah blah blah… Or it’s my brothers blah blah blah… Nothing in regards to me.

Like- is that really necessary dude? Haha

So when I posted on here… I had to put a disclaimer up because I knew what was going happen and I was already in a pissed off mood and I honestly did not want to deal with it LOL

You would think it’s common courtesy right? -_- but apparently it’s offensive. Whatevs. I didn’t notice any loss of followers so clearly even though I pissed off a couple of people… They are still following me… So they must care little too much. hahaha

Also… This happened. I mean it’s  something? 

Had a little talk… Which was actually surprising that we didn’t fight. He also decided to be kind and help with the financial stress right now due to my bank account being annoying and frustrating… And he sent a little bit of money in advance instead of sending it on the first. He offered out of the blue and that surprised me a lot.

So I am able to get any loose ends that I need to before I have to baby that way I don’t have to go anywhere too soon after delivery. So that was nice I guess.

Also… This happened. I mean it’s something?

Had a little talk… Which was actually surprising that we didn’t fight. He also decided to be kind and help with the financial stress right now due to my bank account being annoying and frustrating… And he sent a little bit of money in advance instead of sending it on the first. He offered out of the blue and that surprised me a lot.

So I am able to get any loose ends that I need to before I have to baby that way I don’t have to go anywhere too soon after delivery. So that was nice I guess.